"Hi! My name is Toya and I am wanting information about our prison ministry."
That is the beginning of the email I sent to my church today asking about being involved in the prison ministry at our church. Please understand that I want no "way to go Toya" or "way to be the change you want to see in the world Toya" accolades for this. I am not saying this to be seen as some kind of an example. This is actually an admission of guilt.
Over the past few days I have had to ask myself "What is my cause?" A cause is different from a passion. You can be passionate about something but a cause is a "basis for an action or response; a reason." Interestingly enough a cause is also " the producer of an effect, result, or consequence." I don't need to just find a cause; I need to BE a cause. I need to be the cause of someone finding hope, I need to be the cause of someone making better choices, I need to be the cause of someone wanting a relationship with a big and loving God. I need to have a cause and I need to be one.
It's not enough to be just passionate about something anymore. I don't want to speak for God but I did pray a bit reminding Him (like He has a bad memory) that in the bible it says that He changed the heart of Pharoah. This is solely my opinion and something I will ponder on some more, but what if the result of the Troy Davis case is a wake up call for long overdue individual change? This went all the way to the Supreme Court only for our system to come back as if to say "We said NO." Sometimes it takes drastic circumstances to wake people up to the severity of a situation.
Sometimes it takes drastic circumstances to wake me up to the severity of a situation.
I am more overcome by my guilt and repentance than I am over my sadness for Troy Davis' execution. I am sad to say that I have often substituted knowing what's better for doing what's better; for having an opinion on what should be done over actually being a part of doing what needs to be done. I have sat back comfortably and critically for far too long.
For the record, my small company that produces benefit concerts for local charities isn't enough as far as my part in doing something. While it's helped a small bit towards local causes, it's too...convenient. It's about as convenient as throwing money at a cause without really looking it in the face.
It's about as convenient as throwing money at a cause without really looking at a face.
It's just not enough and for that I am sad.
Past the seeker as he prayed came the crippled and the beggar and the beaten. And seeing them... he cried, "Great God, how is it that a loving creator can see such things and yet do nothing about them?" God said, "I did do something. I made you." ~Author Unknown
What's been your reaction to the outcome of the Troy Davis case? Has it moved you to want to find or further your own cause?