Wednesday, April 6, 2011

It’s My Life- Toya
This song by No Doubt (which is a cover of the hit by Talk Talk) came on as I was typing this post and I thought the title was perfect. Then again so is the Bon Jovi song of the same name.

"It's my life, it's now or never
I aint gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive" - "It's My Life" Bon Jovi

At precisely 10:02 am this morning I had this revelation:

I am almost 40.

*BLANK STARE*

40.

40? YEARS old??? And I don’t even want to talk about how close that is to 50. Don’t even say it! Don’t even think it! It’s one thing to get a message about your 20th high school reunion next year but to be close to 40 is a whole other monster. 40?!?!?!?

*Calming down*

No really, 40. Ok I have to stop saying that now.

Just last night I was telling someone that I want to do everything that I am remotely good at that I haven’t really tried yet. Everything. I don’t want to miss anything. I don’t want to look back and say “Man I should’ve tried that. Just for the experience.” Whether it’s TV, writing a book, planting my own cilantro, going semi-gluten free, travelling to a country by myself, whatever; I have to GO HARD for these next four years. Lord willing I will be able to. There is no time for “I oughta”. Let’s do it and let’s do it now. I only have one life and once it's over that's it! One chance. It needs to count.

I have a friend of mine that I’ve been working with on some event management things. I told Tia that I fool with her because she has been the only one able to get me a check. LOL! Now I don’t regret the many things I have done pro bono because they’ve afforded me some great networking opportunities but as of late I have had to really prioritize. There is a good chance that unless it is bringing me a check, I am not taking on anymore of anyone else’s projects. I just don’t have the time. However I do feel that if I was more financially secure it wouldn’t matter. I’d be in fashion, television, fighting for the homeless, ministry, concert production and of course growing my own cilantro. But here is the thing: I heard Terry McBride of Nettwerk say one time that you don’t do good out of abundance, you get the abundance out of good. So even though I can’t do all that I’d like to because a third of my day is spent being a receptionist and sitting, I can at least plant seeds…even though every day…I am just…sitting.

Yeah, these next 4 years need to count BIG.

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