Friday, January 28, 2011

Fearless- Toya

"Fearless" is a song by dcTalk that jacks me up every single time. Kevin Max is a beast at the end.

Nashville is small. Too small. I often joke that it only has about 300 people in it. So when last night’s American Idol came on I expected to see at least three people I knew on it (congratulations and best wishes to Jackie Wilson, Ashthon Jones and Kendra Chantelle). You have people that are talented that would understandably never try out for American Idol because most people don’t want to deal with all the nail biting and possible rejection. By the same token you have people that aren’t necessarily talented that come hell or high water are going to jump at every opportunity to stand in line for hours for their time to shine…like this child right here:

*Faints* at :47

Now, I have seen Younique perform in person a few times at an open mic downtown and she has always been dead serious. DEAD serious….like the expression I try to keep on my face whenever I have made the mistake of sitting in the front row at an open mic (always a bad idea). But the thing that fascinates me about her is her confidence. Can she sing? I don’t think I need to answer that. But think about it. She’s pretty bold to go an American Idol and expect to go to Hollywood. Heck if you’re good that’s still a pretty bold assumption come to think of it.

And that’s the thing I am stuck on. Why is it that so many of us are actually good at things and don’t follow through with them? It may be that we think we aren’t good enough or smart enough. It may be that what we are good at doesn’t seem practical and we can’t immediately see the payoff. I’m not saying that just because you are good at something that you should pursue it. I am good at creating Microsoft spreadsheets. No way in the world do I want to make a living out of doing that. But if faith without works is dead and works without faith is lifeless then no works and no faith has got to be___________________________(*flatline*).

I think that no matter what reasons or excuses we have boil down to fear. I hate not knowing what direction I am supposed to be going in. I'm afraid of failure and often times afraid of success.  There are plenty things that I am good at and I don’t say that vainly. I say that with frustration. It reminds me of that Cosby episode where Cliff is mentoring young men in an after school program. One guy says he’s not sure what he wants to do and Cliff plainly tells him to pick. I say plainly because what if you are not passionate about what you are picking? Is passion overrated? Perhaps. As someone who can get really excited to start something and then despise the responsibility of it the next (I tend to be really sensational like that), it just may be.

A few scriptures I have been reflecting on when it comes to this is from Ecclesiastes 11:1,6:

1. Cast your bread on the surface of the waters, for you will find it after many days.
6. Sow your seed in the morning and do not be idle in the evening, for you do not know whether morning or evening sowing will succeed, or whether both of them alike will be good.

Tia says I am always on my hustle. Man I am just casting my bread upon the waters! Can I be honest though?  I don’t know what’s going to come back so I'm afraid of the unknown even if the unknown could be great. All I know is that sowing and reaping is a universal law whether you believe in Jesus, Allah, or a park bench. I believe that some way some how if at I least try a little bit of everything I am even remotely interested in, something has got to open up.

It’s been how many weeks since I posted something? Consistency is not a natural strong point for me as you can see. I have to fight my natural state of being everyday to stay on track. Regardless, I enjoy blogging and will continue to do it. More frequently I promise. If it turns into something that actually pays my bills then woo hoo! But if it’s just a creative outlet, since I am made in the image of the Creator I still win.

I want to hear from you guys. What have you been sitting on and not pursuing out of fear? Don’t let Younique out hustle you!

1 comment:

Christine said...

Where's the offering bucket? I just got a word.