Monday, March 15, 2010

These Past 4+ Months in 4+ Minutes- Toya

So "this" happened. I know it's cryptic but once I get past the WTH stage of it all, I may divulge. Right now, it stings a little and I fear that if I write about it before I am ready it will sound like some "whoa is me" type stuff and I never want to come across that way.

I was talking to Tia about everything today and we came to the conclusion that no matter how you look at this, it sucks. I think the conversation went something like this:

Me: This would be so awesome if it wasn't so..."unawesome".
Tia: No, this is bad. Definitely "unawesome".

I have yet to figure out how to really handle things that happen to you that not only do you not ask for but you are offensively trying to avoid and them BLAM! I could "Whoa is me" all day long about this and complain about how things have never seemed to turn out right for me but that just takes too much energy at this point. On one hand, I am trying to be optimistic and say "Some women have had it so much worst. You are lucky that things never get so far that you have ever had to lose anything." But if you have been reading this blog long enough, you know that things seem to creep up on me when I am minding my own business. That is what is so annoying. It would be different if I was looking for ridiculousness. At least then I could say that I had myself to blame. With this situation no one is to blame. It just is what it is.

And still I am being cryptic and I'm sorry. Once I get a good valuable lesson from it all, I will share. I may have to confess some things first to some people because this blog has gotten a little popular but hey, that's what happens when you write cathartically (spell check is telling me that is not a word. Whatever.) What I will say is this: Life is not easy and there are some things you just can't control. This is small potatoes. Small, annoying, unfortunate potatoes but small potatoes nonetheless.

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