Thursday, February 11, 2010

I Probably Won't Talk About This Again So...-Toya

John Mayer has been in my prayers for a few weeks now. A few weeks ago I went to the taping of Keith Urban and John Mayer's Crossroads for CMT. As a friend of mine and I stood out back and waited for or friend from Urban's camp,security made their way through to clear the exit for John Mayer. As soon as he walked past us I had a flashback of when Tia and I met him at Tower Records. He was plain, kinda frat boy looking. But when I got a good glimpse of him a few weeks back I thought "Wow! He looks really...Hollywood?" I then started to feel some compassion well up inside as I pondered something: someone who grows up just wanting to play his guitar and sing his songs does not necessarily know what they are signing up for when it comes to being famous. I am sure that Jennifer Aniston did not become an actress thinking that she was signing up for hour long specials about her love life. If you are even the slightest bit unstable while playing in your high school talent show, chances are when you have more money which equals more access to things and fame which tends to equal more scrutiny, things can get pretty hard to deal with.

Tonight was the 4th time I have seen him play. Funny enough, I didn't even know I was going tonight. Minutes after reading the hoopla someone literally asked me if I was going and then handed me two tickets. I am so glad that I went. He played quite a few oldies and as he went into "No Such Thing" I teared up. That's what got him started on a ride that he did not anticipate going the way it has. I already knew that "Gravity" was going to be emotional. In the middle of the song, he confessed what I had suspected: it got too much for him and it took hurting the ones he loved to show him that things have gotten out of control.

I made up my mind years ago not to read John Mayer interviews because his music means to much to me. I still haven't read the entire Playboy interview and I won't after hearing his apology at his show tonight. To me it is a done deal. I pray that there are people in his life to truly show him where The Light is. That they will surround him with the love of Jesus and as he figures out who John Mayer is, along the way he will find out who God has created him to be. Tonight was a great reminder for me of how amazing and greatly needed grace is. I am grateful for Jesus in my life and his example and command to forgive. I hope John Mayer experiences that and learns to forgive himself.

I realize that compassion and forgiveness aren't always popular. People want to be angry and call him a racist and whatever. Some may even feel like I am defending him and condoning his actions and that is far from the truth. I just really feel for a hurting person.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

i just wanna know why girls are cheering while he's trying to apologize.