Monday, March 30, 2009

My Article in Her Nashville Magazine- Toya

Well, it's here.  It's on the website and hits newsstands tomorrow.  My stomach is IN KNOTS! KNOTS I tell you.  I can't believe how nervous I am about this.  I don't even understand why really. Maybe because it's out there in the world now with my picture on it. Still not sure how I feel about my right eye in the one I am smiling in.

As much as I swore I wasn't telling anyone about it, I did give a heads up to some of my friends who have daughters. In the article I mention that I decided to wait to have sex until marriage when I was 13.  Some of them have daughters close to that age so if they saw fit, they can share it with them.  In no way at all am I saying "Oooh look at me. I'm special."  Not at all.  Just trying to help if and when I can. 

Yeah. I'm freaked out. I mean, it's not Vogue or anything, but I'm freaked out.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Another One Bites the Dust- Toya

I mean, whatever Bruce. Fine.
The love of my life since 7th grade, Bruce Willis, got married last week to longtime girlfriend model,umm, I don't care to know her name (hater says what?). 

I mean, it's cool. Bruce is 54. It's about time he settles down. But for the record I've been down for Bruce Willis since the Levis 501 Blues commercials. I was down when he had to go to rehab and stopped doing those Seagram's wine cooler commercials.  I was even there after Hudson Hawk and that wack Return of Bruno album. I mean, it's cool. No hard feelings, Bruce. I aint trippin'. I'll be just fine...

*runs to vinyl collection to pull out Whitney Houston's "Didn't We Almost Have It All"*
Sowing the Seeds of Love- Toya
I would NOT know how to act if Tears for Fears came around these parts.  I just wouldn't.  They need to do a greatest hits tour. I needs to hear "Break It Down Again" live and I also need to know why Moses was on a motorbike.

I have no idea what's going on right now.

Tia is on the Mayercraft on a mini vacation that I hope is delightful for her and I am not at all saying that sarcastically. She needs a vaca.  I on the other hand am just in a season of sowing seeds:writing  down ideas, trying to make connections and planning for only God knows what.

I had to give myself pep talks for two weeks just to get out of the bed because my attitude was of "Get out of the bed FOR WHAT?"  I stand by my belief that God didn't release me from a cubicle job to go into another cubicle job because the way it happened tells me so.  However if I am the one holding up my breakthrough... I don't want to believe that. I really don't. God is patient. I am not. God is forgiving. I am not.  I need to know that I am not screwing this up.

I am doing things that I am gifted in but not making any money and living off of unemployment that will be running out in a matter of weeks.  I have been laid off for 6 months. I cannot believe it has been six months. I an grateful that I am not homeless but I don't even want to know what my credit score looks like right now, my God. I know this stream of consciousness might sound like defeat but it really is not. I'm not defeated just clueless.

Yesterday I did an interview for a friend of mine writing a piece on freelancers. I didn't even know I was one.  I mean, I've taken some random one day jobs here and there and the two shows I produced through my company Kid Electric Concerts ( have gone really well. Still there is no stability...well tangible stability. If I was not stable in the hands of God, I would definitely be on the streets right now and for that I am grateful.  Still,there is this fear that God is screaming something that I am not getting.

I have watched a lot of church television and they have all said the same thing at the same time: that this is going to be a great year of breakthrough contrary to what the media is saying. And you know what? I believe that.  Joel Osteen put it like this: He said how would it look if he brought his two kids onstage and they had holes all in their clothes and were dirty and unkept? We'd be thinking "What kind of father would have his kids looking like that?"  In Psalms, David cries out to God repeatedly asking to not be put to shame. He also states that no one who trusts in God will be put to shame.  I have to believe that this will all make sense and soon. I don't have much time.

A few weeks ago when I was having one of my sideways on the couch pity parties, I came across this scripture that I have never seen before in my life in Ecclesiastes 5:18-19
"Then I realized that it is good and proper for a man to eat and drink, and to find satisfaction in his toilsome labor under the sun during the few days of life God has given him—for this is his lot. 19 Moreover, when God gives any man wealth and possessions, and enables him to enjoy them, to accept his lot and be happy in his work—this is a gift of God."

If doing what you love for a living and finding satisfaction in your work is a gift from God then I will continue to daily and persistently ask God for this gift. In fact this has been my prayer for all of my friends because every single one of us, including my family, seem to be in the same boat.  Time out for spending a third of your day everyday doing something that you care nothing about. So in faith, I am going to write, I am going to plan and I am going to dream.  I am going to pray for this gift and prepare for it as if it is already done. I want to believe that God wants me to work within my gifts and talents that He has given me to support myself.  I don't think it's a matter of if but when.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

NKOTB recap – Tia
I'm currently out of town but I don't have my personal laptop with me. When I get back home I'll post the pictures to go with the post.

I was fortunate enough to get to go to the New Kids show again last night in Nashville. While the show was good, I would have to say the Atlanta show was better. The production was excellent and overall it was a really good show. But for some reason, a couple of the guys *coughJoncoughJordancough* just didn’t seem to care too much. Jon especially. Although he did win the pose off at the end of Click, Click, Click.

The decibel level in the place was earth shattering. I thought it was loud in Atlanta. But I think I can safely say that Nashville was louder. I found myself wondering how it must feel to have thousands of people (mostly middle-aged women, but whatever) screaming for you. I’ve heard rumors of certain people *coughDonniecoughDannycough* being manwhores on the tour. Honestly, I don’t doubt it. The adoration and devotion of some of the New Kids fans is not easily matched by the fans of any performer out today. I mean, honestly, when was the last time you saw thousands of fans going apeshizz over a group? Wait, let me rephrase that: when was the last time you saw thousands of fans who were old enough to drive, vote and drink going apeshizz over a group? (I heard those Jonas boys have some Beatle-worthy fans. But most of them can’t even legally get behind the wheel of a car.) So to hear that the baby-daddy bus (a tour insider told me that’s what Donnie and Danny call their bus) has a revolving door of women doesn’t surprise me at all.

Overall, I have to give them credit. To be middle-aged and still doing the steps from Step by Step is a feat in and of itself. Even Jon got them mostly right. (Y’all know he struggles. He struggled when he was 21. He struggles now.) And although at times unmotivated, for the most part The Block gives you what you want as a fan. You will hear your classics (Joey has LONG since left adolescence, so Please Don’t Go Girl starts SEVERAL octaves lower than the original cd version) and you’ll hear the new joints (Donnie, I will take your Grown Man. You JUST DON’T KNOW!!) And as hard as you may try, you will at some point find yourself screaming like a junior high school girl and proclaiming your love for the Block member of your choice. You think you won’t. You SAY you won’t. You will.

Some highlights:

Jordan is just going keep taking off his shirt for Baby, I Believe in You. That’s fine.

Donnie kissed at least 4 girls in the front row. Ummm….NO. If y’all knew where his mouth has been you would be so sad.

Jon literally just GAVE UP when the guys were performing in the middle of the auditorium. He sat on the piano as if to say, “I JUST DON’T CARE!!” Yes, Jon, we know. Well, some of us know.

Jordan did Give It to You from his solo album. I need him to stop tripping and do some part of Separate Ways.

I feel bad for the lack of love Danny gets. But I respect the fact that he can still windmill as a middle-aged man.

I love Donnie like a fat kid loves cake. But he really is not much of a singer. I mean, I fine with that. But know your strengths. He is consistently flat and/or off key. But I will TOTALLY be his Covergirl.

I think Joey did some sort of tap dance or Riverdance routine during his solo song. A song, I might I add, that I didn’t recognize AT ALL. Was Joey on Broadway or something? Because between his Dancing with the Stars routine and his inspirational singles, he’s just extra enough to be in someone’s stage play.

Jon walked off the stage twice toward the end of the show. Maybe he was sick or something.

There were WAY TOO MANY women dressed in spandex at this show. I saw more crimped hair, side ponytails, neon colors and puffy painted, off shoulder sweatshirts than there should be in this decade. The girl next to me pointed to a girl a few rows ahead of us and said, “She has PUFFY PAINT on her shirt. I have puffy paint at home but I use it correctly.” I love drunk New Kids fans.

I took two blows to the kidney trying to get as close to the stage in the middle of the auditorium as I could. It was totally worth it because Donnie is fine and I’m almost positive I got the, “HEY GIRL” look from him. Anne Marie is my witness.

I lose my mind every time I hear Grown Man. I would take Donnie’s Grown Man all day long. (Sorry Lord.) And while I’m talking about it, does anyone know what they’re saying at the beginning and end of that song? It sounds like, “Yo, check out Adidas pants.” And while that is what I sing, I’m pretty sure that’s not what they’re saying.

I almost wish that I could go on the New Kids cruise. Not so much so that I could hem Donnie up in a dark corner, but more so because I know that the tomfoolery and debauchery that is going to ensue is going to be the stuff that legends are made of. I’m pretty sure one of the readers is going. Please take LOTS of pictures and email them to us IMMEDIATELY upon your return.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Update on Channing Tatum - Tia

He is still fine.

That is all.

Friday, March 13, 2009

If You're in Nashville Next Thursday Night...

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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

MY American Idol Boyfriend - Tia

So I know it's been a minute since I've posted anything. I have been busy with work as usual. And I'm moving AGAIN. My neighborhood SWIFTLY went downhill. So I've been packing my stuff for about the last month or so and preparing to move. And I've managed to get sick 2 weeks before I go on vacation. Awesome...Anyway...

I have, however, made time to watch snippets of Idol. I stopped watching when they let my baby Matt go, so I didn't even know they'd brought him back until about a day before the 1st 13 performed. But thank the Lord they brought him back. He has been my favorite since DAY ONE. I mean, like the MINUTE I saw him I went to Myspace to add him as a friend.

I am a sucker for a white boy singing what I like. JT can go on somewhere. He's cute enough but whatever. But Matt Giraud and those of his ilk can holla/sing/shout at me anyday. Yes, child.

Oh and is his momma black...blackish, mixed, some sort of colored...? For real, she looks like a cousin of mine.

My American Idol Boyfriend of This Season Is...Danny Gokey

Now I have had an AI television crush for every season and I wasn't sure about whether that would continue this year but Danny Gokey is what's up.To top it off he is a worship leader who no doubt probably sings the fool out of some Fred Hammond on a Sunday morning. I've seen his kind before (inside joke between Tia and myself). Now I think Adam is going to take it all the way but Danny's won my heart. Speaking of Adam, I need him to go on and replace Axl Rose in Guns N Roses because that kid is a beast.

Don't ask me about anyone else in this year's competition though. This season is about as dry as Tito Jackson's jerri curl in the Sahara Desert with no activator in sight.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Lessons In Love- Toya

This blog really isn't about love. At least I don't think it is.  I just named it that because that is the song that is playing in the background where I am typing this.  This will actually be another list because I can't come up with a real blog right now and I don't want to leave BGLU hangin...

1. Went to the AAC Championship this weekend to do makeup for Damien Horne and his background singers for their half-time performance. I flew in on Saturday and left Sunday afternoon. It was a blast. Check out Damien's song for the AAC "She Can Play" at I did the makeup for the video too.  

2. On the flight back, I had to help a hysterical but sweet older lady in a wheelchair with a prosthetic leg.  Security had taken her Lubriderm and her leg was burning and itching in the prosthetic. As she cried in pain and I tried to calm her down while screaming for ice, she took her prosthetic off. Now look, I am squeamish for REAL.  I had to shut all the way down.  It was Jesus that kept me from also needing a wheelchair.  They sat the both of us in first class and I rubbed her back most of the ride home with her amputated leg just sitting there on a bag of ice. A-MAZING.  Such a sweet woman.  Because she missed her flight and her ride home, a lady behind us handed her a grip of bills, looked at me and said, "God brings us all together for a reason."  I would like to know the reason for sure because that was the most random thing to date. 

3. A guy asked me for my number very nicely at the mall on Saturday and I wanted to vanish.  I don't know what happened, I just froze up and told him no.  There was nothing wrong with him really. I just couldn't bring myself to say yes.  I can't take another random person in my life.  

I have always been like this as I remember (it's been that long mind you). Anyone I have ever dated I knew for a long time before we went out.  My friends are convinced that I am scared of dating and they are right. Now I have a few great guy friends that if they asked me I would say yes but I would need my friends to keep me in check from running away and trying to make this guy hate me. What is that????? Maybe I should just resolve to stay single.  Honestly, the thought doesn't scare me one bit. You can stop laughing now.

4.  Orange is my favorite color. Don't know why I just decided to say that.

5.  I was listening to Anberlin's first record today and Ready Fuels is STILL and forever will be the jam. Period. Yall need to recognize Stephen Christian as the one of the best front men ever. I remember asking him how he learned to sing because he is actually a rock singer that can really sing and he said it was hereditary.  In disbelief I said, "I oughta punch you in your face, Stephen. Are you serious?" Ridiculous, and even more so live.

6. If they open up one more cupcake place here I am investing in moo moos for the summer. 

7. Sunday Best has started on BET and they didn't show my mom or the first place online winner. Oh well. I am glad my mom had the experience though. She is in the studio working on her album now. My  That sounds so crazy!

8.  Plato's Closet is giving 40% off one item when you sell clothes there in the month of March.  I just moved and have some purging to do so I will be up in there with the quickness. Got the cutest H&M dress there that I wore for my shoot for my magazine article.  Didn't matter because they just took a head shot.  I will post the link here.

9.  Someone sent me a link to Jamie Foxx's new video for "Blame Me" which I was so disappointed to find out was Jamie Foxx. SO disappointed.  Yeah, Samuel L. Jackson and Ron Howard (seriously, Opie) are in the video but who cares? Moses and Martin Luther King Jr. could be in it. The song is still garbage.

10. What is NOT garbage is Musiq Soulchild's new single "So Beautiful" which reminds me of earlier Musiq cuts.  Here's the video. Enjoy.