Friday, September 11, 2009

Speak, Lord- Toya

I heard this song as I pulled into Shoney's today on what I would call a "buffet day". Buffet days are baaaaaaad. Buffet day means I don't want to wait for food, I don't want to have to make choices on what to get and I demand mashed potatoes in my life RIGHT NOW. Buffet day means I have no idea what in the hell is going on in my life, I have no clue as to control the whirlwind but the one thing I CAN control is how many times I can get up and get fried okra. This is not a win-win obviously.

And I have SOME NERVE being depressed on 9/11! I did not lose not one loved one 8 years ago today. I am aware that my bad mood is selfish and for this I am sorry. I really am. I just have no way to act like I am ok with everything when I am really not.

And speaking of NYC, my best friend and hero Tia lost her job over a week ago, packed up some of her ish in her car and headed out to NYC to get on her grind and follow her dreams. I told her if I had a shirt with her face on it, I would wear it under my clothes everyday until she came back. I am so proud of her.

I need a vacation. I need...to break...out. The lyrics of this song are calling to me like Sug Avery in a juke joint on a Sunday morning...

When explanations make no sense
When every answer's wrong
You're fighting with lost confidence
All expectations come

The time has come to make or break
Move on don't hesitate
Breakout

Don't stop to ask
Now you've found a break to make at last
You've got to find a way
Say what you want to say
Breakout

When situations never change
Tomorrow looks unsure
Don't leave your destiny to chance
What are you waiting for
The time has come to make your break
Breakout

Don't stop to ask
Now you've found a break to make at last
You've got to find a way
Say what you want to say
Breakout

Don't stop to ask
Now you've found a break to make at last
You've got to find a way
Say what you want to say
Breakout

Some people stop at nothing
If you're searching for something
Lay down the law
Shout out for more
Breakout and shout day in day out
Breakout

Breakout

Don't stop to ask
Now you've found a break to make at last
You've got to find a way
Say what you want to say
Breakout

Don't stop to ask
Now you've found a break to make at last
You've got to find a way
Say what you want to say
Breakout

Lay down the law
Shout out for more
Breakout and shout day in day out

Breakout

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