Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Songs in the Key of Life- Toya

I got laid off today.
I am ecstatic!

No seriously. Now mind you I LOVE where I work. LOVE it. My co-workers are a second family to me.  But I seriously have been feeling restless in comfortability.  I loved where I work but the work itself was seeming less and less significant. Turns out I was right and they cut my department. 

I have mentioned before that God speaks to me often through songs. Music plays all around me but sometimes something will catch me in a way that grabs my attention or some lyrics will play over and over in my head and I am forced to find the lyrics to the whole song.  There have been a few that have been swimming in my head and now I know why.

I have been thinking about and hearing messages about the exciting life that God wants for us. In doing so. I have been paying attention to my desires and aching for something more adventurous. I told someone the other day that I want to be married but in no way am I looking to settle down and don't want to be committed to anyone that wants to settle down anytime soon either.  Then today, I heard this:

"Saddle up your horses"...

This lyric is from Steven Curtis Chapman's "The Great Adventure". I haven't heard this song in years. Here are the lyrics:

Saddle up your horses

Started out this morning in the usual way
Chasing thoughts inside my head of all I had to do today
Another time around the circle try to make it better than the last

I opened up the Bible and I read about me
Said I'd been a prisoner and God's grace had set me free
And somewhere between the pages it hit me like a lightning bolt
I saw a big frontier in front of me and I heard somebody say "let's go"!

CHORUS
Saddle up your horses we've got a trail to blaze
Through the wild blue yonder of God's amazing grace
Let's follow our leader into the glorious unknown
This is a life like no other - this is The Great Adventure

Come on get ready for the ride of your life
Gonna leave long faced religion in a cloud of dust behind
And discover all the new horizons just waiting to be explored
This is what we were created for

(Chorus)

BRIDGE
We'll travel over, over mountains so high
We'll go through valleys below
Still through it all we'll find that
This is the greatest journey that the human heart will ever see
The love of God will take us far beyond our wildest dreams

Yeah... oh saddle up your horses... come on get ready to ride



You can scream coincidence all day long but I know that I know that I know that this has been the cry of my heart for weeks now and this morning at my desk it came to a head. I knew something was fishy when I heard Justin Timberlake's "Take It From Here" but I decided to sit and be depressed.  I just was getting restless, wishing for something more. I felt like David Byrne in "Once in a Lifetime" where he says "This is not my beautiful house! This is not my beautiful wife. How did I get here? My God what have I done?"  My life can no longer be spent by spending a third of my day everyday doing something that in now way pertains to my career. So after 2 Diet Cokes, daydreams about NYC in the fall, and torturing myself by listening to UK radio on line, I went to the bathroom at work.  Funny enough, I knew I had reason to believe that eventually I may be let go. Didn't think it would be today.  My HR person met me outside the door and asked me to come into the conference room.

My boss began. "You are our favorite person here. You've done nothing wrong. In fact, it's everything but you. This is so hard."  Everything after that just started to run together.  They assured me that I would have enough pay and any recommendation letter I needed. I kind of remember but I kind of don't. I was trying too hard to hide my excitement. Maybe I couldn't hear them above the horses galloping.

So I got home, talked to a friend of mine and decided that I needed some time alone to think.  I desperately wanted to pray about all that has happened and was hoping to maybe shut up long enough to perhaps listen to what God has to say. And then this song, that I have never really known the words to, started playing in my head:

"The Light in Your Eyes"- Sheryl Crow

Something is happening
Everything's different but everything is fine
This is the good stuff
Yesterday's only what you leave behind
It's only in your mind

You gotta talk to the One who made you
Talk to the One who understands
Talk to the One who gave you all the light in your eyes
All the light in your eyes

No use pretending
You never existed until you saw the light
You're just beginning
You never missed it, it's all ahead of you
And you know what to do

You gotta talk to the One who made you
Talk to the One who understands
Talk to the One who gave you all the light in your eyes
All the light in your eyes

Here comes the world and she is beautifully mysterious
She's got it all and you say 'give it to me'

Nobody's happy
That's not the world I know inside
Everybody hides

You gotta talk to the One who made you
Talk to the One who understands
Talk to the One who gave you all the light in your eyes
All the light in your eyes

You gotta talk to the One who loves you
Talk to the One who understands
Talk to the One who gave you all the light in your eyes
All the light in your eyes

Yeah, thank you thank you!
Yeah, everything great and small
Yeah, thank you thank you!
For the light in your eyes
For the light in your eyes


Yes Lord. Thank You indeed. :O)




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