Wednesday, December 26, 2007

So....Today is My Birthday!!!!!!- Toya

I woke up this morning to check my birthday messages, which have been sooooo awesome, and immediately put on my new favorite song, Britten's "She". Check it out at This song has GOT to make you feel good. And not once does he use the word "shawty". Bless God. I'm a grown woman, dawg. Shawty is played.

One of the messages I got was from someone I don't see a lot but it blessed me so much and ...I can barely even put it into words. Part of it said this...

You are one who lights up the room when you walk in, your laugh is so contagious, your eyes twinkle when you get happy, and your precious smile will melt anyones heart. You bring joy to everyone you meet and if someone doesn't realize it, then they are missing out on the fact that you are so complex but just so simple. I just can't believe that someone hasn't opened their eyes yet to realize what they are missing out on.

WOW!!!!!!! I chalk up every compliment I get to the Lord. Seriously. Because I am constantly amazed at how much He blesses me and that He has even seen fit to use ME for ANYTHING in this world. I used to have such terrible self esteem. That is why I was such an underachiever growing up. So when people tell me how I much I mean to them, I thank God because there used to be a time when I didn't want to be here; when even existing was painful. I remember at my lowest point before I moved to Nashville, accelerating my car down an empty street thinking about how hard I could hit a telephone pole to end it all. However, deep down inside I knew that this was not the abundant life that Jesus lived and died for me to have. If I truly said that I believed in Him, I needed to start acting like it and stop trying to live this life in my own strength. I'm so glad He turned me around.

I remember the day I found out that my first name means "Victorious". That blew me away. Up until that point, I had been calling myself "Screw up". The bible says that He will give you everything you need for life and godliness. So all you have to do is believe you got it and walk in that faith. I'm already shaking my head at how magnificent that is.

So if you are reading this, celebrate my birthday. I don't mean celebrate the fact that I was born. I mean I want YOU to have a great day today. Celebrate victory, self love, and the fact that everyday you get is a day that God believes that you can get it right that day. Love love love!!!!!

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